God spoke to me about this just yesterday during my personal time between God and me. It was in Deuteronomy 1:42 "“But the Lord told me to tell you, ‘Do not attack, for I am not with you. If you go ahead on your own, you will be crushed by your enemies.’" Similarly, in 1 Timothy 6:11 "But you, Timothy, are a man of God; so run from all these evil things. Pursue righteousness and a godly life, along with faith, love, perseverance, and gentleness.
In Timothy 6:11 it states, run from all these evil things (temptations, hate, lust.) whatever it may be. What God really spoke to me on this verse was the very first word on the next line that is PURSUE. Not just pursue anything else from this world that will help us get our minds of all these evil things in our minds. But, instead, pursue righteousness and a GODLY life. It comes back to centering our lives back on God once again. Only by centering our lives for God only then we will be able to really overcome whatever evil things there are in our lives. Personally, I have always had the problem with lust and pornography. Whenever I feel convicted to stop all these filthy things that I've been doing, I always manage to stop watching pornography for a period of time, but then, just a hint of temptation would cause to fall back into the sin-repent cycle once again. I always wondered what was the problem, why did I always fall back into this sin. I finally got my answer, that fleeing and always trying to overcome the problems in our lives without pursuing God was hopeless. The reason why I always fell back into pornography was because I wasn't spending time with God personally, I wasn't allowing God to speak into my life, I wasn't allowing Him to convict me on the inside. I wasn't pursuing God.
In Deuteronomy 1:42, what God spoke to me on this was, really direct, and it shot right into my heart. What God spoke to me on this was that, whenever I go to school, I'm mostly alone, so I kinda feel 'independent' sorta. My mind naturally starts to wonder a bout, thinking about all sorts of things, but lacking the thought, and the communication with God. As this prolonged, I felt distant from God, till the things that I do in school became, only what I decided what I wanted, the whole idea of communicating with the Holy Spirit just disappeared, then this was when I will start to feel. A odd sense of emptiness, a sense that I was falling into the world, the thought of God wasn't within me. (Independency) Thankfully, the Holy Spirit prompts me to go to the library or somewhere quiet to realign my thought-life back to God once again. After, spending a couple of minutes with God, it just calms me down, and enhances my spiritual sensitivity back to its full level once again, and to be in constant communication with God, in my mind.
If it wasn't for the Holy Spirit prompting me to spend time with my Father and to realign my thoughts towards Him, I'd fall even further and further away till that point that I'd let my guard down so low till, I'm so weak spiritually, that the enemy hurls evil desires and thoughts into my life and I'd stumble and start to shun myself away from the Christian friends and community, slowly, bit by bit. The number I got of God, I'd feel more empty within. (Spiritual death)
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